This Is Who We Are

The first post that I wrote on Ameezing was about Joburg.  Living in Joburg, loving in Joburg, surviving in Joburg.

I’ve been here for twelve years now.  In this city during these storms and those power failures and endless days of sunshine and endless nights of cautious possibilities.  It took me almost a decade in Joburg to realise that this place had become a part of who I was, how I saw things and how I moved through the world.

It made me see good things with an exhilaration that rarity brings and see bad things with an optimism that practiced, chosen cheeriness brings.  It made me appreciate friends and good weather.  It showed me how to do more than was expected, be more than people thought was possible and to dry those futile tears and just get the heck on with it.

Joburg takes great delight in holding your hand and leading you down a path of darkness, black ink across a white page, a path so vivid and real that it begins to feel like all there is.  And just when seeing starts to seem like something you used to do, the darkness is gone. Replaced by a new day, a positive moment, let’s face it, the smell of a braai at sunset.

And you’re back, in love, prudently stripping away the layers of defenses, unpacking your bag and cancelling your ticket to anywhere else.

I realised, only recently, that this is the dance that I have been doing with Joburg for many years now.  See good – cha cha cha – experience bad – step ball change.  Experience good – cha cha cha – see bad – step ball change.  Pack, unpack, pack, unpack.

Joburg, I want to quit the show!  You have me.  I am yours.  This doesn’t mean that I will just blindly stay forever, but it does mean that I am a Joburger.  I have earned my title and wear it proudly.  I know you.  I will fight for you and with you and about you.  I am yours.

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  1. London Kurt says:

    Great post Camilla!

  2. Ms. Ameezing says:

    Hey thanks, London Kurt!

  3. AntK says:

    Brilliant !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  4. Ms. Ameezing says:

    AntK x

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